I’m in a place where I’m full of ideas and energy–personal, business, and creative endeavours are bubbling within and around me and I really just wish I could get STARTED. But…because of things beyond my control and realistic timelines etc. I can’t start them yet. This drives me 100% nuts. There are many things in my life right now that feel like they are tied to something out of my hands. I can’t plan- I can only wait.
In particular, I don’t want this dream of mine to remain ‘just-a-dream’, I want to take a LEAP. I’m NOT one to believe that circumstances define me–it’s how I respond that makes the difference.
But seriously, this time, I’m stuck waiting at the starting line. For a while now I’ve felt weighed down by this reality – have you ever felt trapped? So restless to get things moving, but just.can’t.do.anything.yet.
I had a particularly edgy day the other day. I had to quit what I was doing and go outside to get a breath of fresh air. As I walked I was reminded to be thankful for the positives in my life; for the fact that I am able to embark on this journey at all, and to be patient. I do believe that it’s extremely important to step up, take responsibility, and take action in life. But I also know that we need to accept that timing is also key. Sometimes, just sometimes, patience, faith, and reflection are exactly what’s needed–more so than action. I’m trying desperately to accept; to be calm and not edgy.
I’d love to tell you that I have an inspirational understanding for the lesson I’m learning, but I don’t yet. Maybe I never will. But the point is, I’m grateful to be in a place of uncomfortable learning. I know I’ll come out the other end better for it.